Friday, October 31, 2003

Aha! Finally! Been way too long since I've been on, but the other day AOL was being . . . well, I'm sure AOL users all know exactly what I'm talking about and the rest of you have probably heard enough horror stories.

When peace like a river attendeth my way
When sorrows like sea billows roll
Whatever my lot Thou hast taught me to say
It is well, it is well with my soul

Chorus
It is well with my soul
It is well, it is well with my soul

Though Satan should buffet though trials should come
Let this blest assurance control:
That Christ has regarded my helpless estate
And has shed His own blood for my soul

Chorus

My sin, oh the bliss of this glorious thought,
My sin, not in part, but the whole,
Is nailed to the cross and I bear it no more
Praise the Lord, praise the Lord oh my soul

Chorus

And Lord haste the day when my faith shall be sight
The clouds be rollled back as a scroll
The trump shall resound and the Lord shall desend
Even so, it is well with my soul

Chorus

:) For all you hymn lovers out there, that was for you. Oh, the blood of Jesus, it washes white as snow. How grateful I am to know Him! how I wish that those who didn't did! :) What an amazing friend!

Monday, October 27, 2003

Over the weekend, I got to spend time with JieGie, Bibleworm, and Tootall. Seriously FUN. I think I sprained a muscle playing volleyball though. I didn't know Dad could play! Huh.

I think I need to go do homework. *sigh*

God is so good.
God is so good.
God is so good.
He's so good to me.

A lot of the time, I just need to remember the simplicity of the gospel and not get all hung up in the theological debates. Thank You God for sending Your Son.

Friday, October 24, 2003

I just remembered this really cool song I heard once or twice. Jesus is singing it to His children (all of them):

You are so beautiful to Me
You are so beautiful to Me
Can't you see?
You're everything I died for
I'm everything You need
You are so beautiful to Me.

There are days when I really, really, really wish I was Asian, to be specific Chinese. But, unlike the rest of my classmates, I am not. *sigh* Other days I am thrilled to be who I am. Still, though, I can't help thinking that it would be easier . . . For one thing, I'd never get asked if I was Chinese! Gr! WHY do people insist on asking me this? It's very annoying.

Anyway, today was a day when I felt very free. I don't know why, or even what I felt free from. But I felt free. Lately, in the mornings especially, I feel like I have a thirty pound backpack on my shoulders. Today I felt very light and upbeat. I don't know why. Things just get "curioser and curiouser" as Alice would say. Some days I feel like I have gone through the Looking Glass!

One of my teachers keeps insisting I should go to China. I would love nothing more than to go to China. She even said she would sponsor me. I hate fundraising, though. Hey, God, can't you just like, earmark the money and drop it in my lap? :) George Muller did that. Why can't I? After all, Jehovah Jireh. God provides. And what a provider God has been for me.

So far this year has not been very stressful. And believe me, I know stressful! Freshman year was definitely the hardest. If things get tougher than that, I quit. The five hardest teachers. Good grief. It did not help that I came in six weeks late and I came from three years of homeschooling. Ah, well. Can't change the past.

Shen di shi tai hao. God is so good. ;)

Thursday, October 23, 2003

Bloggity blog blog. on and on it goes, it never stops . . . but as someone once said, "you get plenty of rest when you die." "No rest for the wicked and the righteous don't need none!" Amen.

I hate groups. The only thing I hate more about choosing my own group is being assigned to a group. Bleh.

No guy, but who needs one when you have Christ? The bestest guy around!!!! But don't take my word for it, try Him for yourself and see the results! lol. I sound like an infomercial.

. . . I was thinking of some specific key words to put in my blog, and now I can't think of them . . . grrrrr.

Oh, well. Life is work. Life is not fair. God is good. What else matters?

Wednesday, October 22, 2003

My Term paper is done! Hallelujah! I was up until four but the stupid thing is FINALLY DONE!!!!! PRAISE THE LORD!!!!!!!! Now the Lord can come back any time He pleases. lol. He could have done that anyway, but I eagerly await the coming of the day!

I need to stop complaining and start praising. IN THE NAME OF JESUS, AMEN! say those who know me well. lol.

To those around the world who have problems: the Lord is there. He will never leave you nor forsake you. In this world, you will have problems, but take heart! He has over come the world.

To Frey: I know your heart is troubled, but one day they will see the error of their ways. Saying a swastika sign and a star of David are equal may be politically correct, but the belief values behind each of them nullify that. Hold on to the truth, for the truth will set you free.

Praise the name of God. Praise His high and mighty name. Praise ye the Lord. Amen. A mighty fortress is our God, a bulwark never failing.

Monday, October 20, 2003

God is good, even though I am trying to think through a splitting headache.

AP test today did not help. The Bible quiz was easy (but then, it should be, considering how many times i've read Revelation . . .)

God keep me safe, and keep me strong for the work I need to do. In Jesus name, Amen.

Sunday, October 19, 2003

God is good, even with all the stuff I have to do for school. Next week is going to be crazy. God is good. God is so good.

Gameboy also has plenty of work to do. Surprise, surprise. He could be doing better if he applied himself. Hmph.

Friend of a friend needs prayer. She needs extra money to fix her car. In the name of Jesus, I pray that she will have all that she needs and more to share that she could proclaim the glory of God. Amen.

Friend - sorry I forgot your b-day on Tuesday. Happy late b-day.

JieGie - happy early b-day to u! Monday will be a happy day for a change . . .lol.

"May God bless us every one."



Friday, October 17, 2003

School is looong and boooring and too hardddd. I gotta' get back on the bus. *sigh*

God is really, really cool. Awesome, and off the hook. He is so good. I am so glad that I know Him. I wonder often How people get along without Him. God gives generously . . . Even more generously than can be imagined by my poor puny brain. . . or anyone else's for that matter . . . Truly too awesome to be described.

What an awesome and amazing gift He has given us!

Wednesday, October 15, 2003

I had a splitting headache, and I felt really tired. Until I saw JieGie. She always manages to make me feel better somehow . . .Amazing how God works. I bless the Lord (can i do that?) for having given me her! What an amazing child of God!

God is . . . Jahovah Shalom. God is peace. Ultimate peace. He gives me peace in the middle of strife and anger, in the middle of the storm He sends His overflowing peace and joy. What a God. I thank You God for being who You are. I bless You (if I can do that) for being who You are.

I have to go now, but I rest in the thought that I am His property!

Tuesday, October 14, 2003

School never ends not even on vacation or summer time. Occasionally I think how nice it would be to go to a normal school and not have homework. Then I remember just how "normal" school was and thank God for brining me where He has. God knows exactly what we need when we need it.

For all the teachers at the conference: may God give you direction, may God show you how to teach better, may God give you sustaining strength throughout the rest of the year.

A. II - I don't like math. I've never liked math. I would really like to get a good grade in it for once though.

AL - I don't like writing essays. I've never been particularly good at it. I don't suppose my good grade will stay static for long. . . *sigh*

C. - I don't know what's going on. But then, neither does anyone else . . . including the teacher.

M. II - Not fun. Hopefully I'll survive it.

AP US - Been slacking off a bit. If I really applied myself, I think I could do pretty well, surprisingly . . . at least until the term paper is due . . .

B - I drive my teacher nuts. But that's o.k.

H- I don't like the classmates, but I can deal with the class.

CP - Looks to be interesting . . . if we ever start class.

Ch - Boring as usual for everyone else, but I'm enjoying my new style of it (pay little attention to speaker, and pay more attention to spending time with God).

I often have this urge to go home, when I am home . . . perhaps it is a desire to be at my heaven home . . . and why not? So much better than here, but God has called me to serve here, and so here I serve.

Monday, October 13, 2003

Church yesterday was pretty interesting. That's always nice. I liked the song they played (haven't heard this in a while):

Give thanks with a grateful heart
Give thanks to the Holy One
Give thanks because He's given Jesus Christ His Son

And now let the weak say I am strong
Let the poor say I am rich
Because of what the Lord has done for us
Give thanks

I should be so grateful for God, but I so often forget what He does for me . . .

He is my Sonshine, my only Sonshine. He makes me happy when skies are gray. I'll never know how much He loves me. Please don't take my Sonshine away.

Sunday, October 12, 2003

So much work, so little time. *sigh* whoever said life was easy? The only thing life does is to get HARDER. But, in His strength (not mine), day by day (not all at once), I stand.

Well, progress reprots ARE out, and I did incredibly well. I still am having a very hard time believing it. But then, it IS only the first month.

The fruit of the Spirit is love, joy, peace, patience, kindness, goodness, faithfulness, gentleness, and self-control. Against such things there is no law.

I have been challenged to exhibit more of these fruits to others around me. I haven't been lately. . .I don't always feel very connected to God . . . but everybody by this point assumes I am simply because I act like I'm more connected than them . . .

As somone once said, an ounce of image is worth a pound of performance. What you look like often is perceived as more important that what you do (case in point: Christian church). I once heard a story about fire, water, and reputation walking together. They were worried about getting lost and fire said, "If you lose me, look for smoke, for there I be." Water said, "If you lose me, look for low land and lots of plants, for there I be." Reputation looked sorrowful and said, "Friends, if once you lose me, it will be nearly impossible to find me again." Think about it . . .

All this of course, means i have an obligation to live up to what I say. It's not easy, but there it is. Bother! But, in the long run, being connected to Jesus is the best thing that can possibly happen . . . I've read the end of the book, and His followers win in the long run. :) I'm so glad I know Him!

Saturday, October 11, 2003

Life . . . passes swiftly. It doesn't seem like it, but suddenly you look back and say: My goodness! How fast it has been! I barely remember the details! I must get it all written down someday. . .

I think if I had a choice, I'd just skip life altogether. A lot of pain, a lot of growing up to do is coming. . . I know what's on the other side of life . . . and it's far better than here. But God wants me here for a while, to be His servant.

I miss time with God that school takes away. It's not fair. It used to be my family and I every day had fellowship together and fellowship with God. Now, that hardly ever happens. How do I go about explaining what that tea time, that walking time, that worship time meant to me without sounding like I'm complaining? Really, I'm grateful for what God has given me. I just wish I had what I used to have . . .

God knows what He is about, though. He sees the best path for me, and because I am His own, He directs me in the paths of righteousness for His namesake. I am His beloved princess and He delights to see me. I delight in His presence and only wish I could stay longer than I do. . .

The difficult thing about reading the Bible is not finding a small enough space of time to read it, it is finding a large enough space of time to read it. When I start reading it, I find it very addicting and incredibly hard to stop. But then, that's the whole point . . . :)

A lot of homework this weekend. But, it is a four day weekend, so I'm not surprised. Lot of reports to do. Let's see if I can keep up my gpa for at least a little while. God, You will have to come with me. I am nothing without You. I've been through enough to see that. I could not survive without Your strength. Thank You so much for being with me like You always are . . .

Friday, October 10, 2003

Too tired to think . . . too tired to breathe. Sheesh. School is . . . school. . .

PR o.k. Junior year isn't the hardest. Freshman was for me. I'm getting nearly a 4.0. In freshman year, I got a 2.8. Perhaps that had something to do with getting the five hardest teachers in school, and starting six weeks late. Hmmm. Could be.

Mandarin is the toughest. Without question. Even harder than AP US. I could be doing better in that if I studied occasionally, although, to my great surprise, I am getting a B. Without studying much more than a quick overview. Why couldn't I do that for AP Euro? Blasted thesis statements!

God is . . . Yahweh. The one who created the heavens and the earth. When you think about it, God is pretty awesome. . . As the Greatest Book Ever Written states, the fear of the Lord is the beginning of wisdom.

Thursday, October 09, 2003

Today was another one of those days . . . Tomorrow's Friday though! Wahoo! I'm doing o.k. in all my classes. Yay God!

God is so kewl. I want Him to be part of my life. It would be totally awesome if He were part of my classmate's lives too! Then we could get together and talk about God! Ah, but such is not my lot. *sigh* ah, well. To God be the glory!

Wednesday, October 08, 2003

Day by day I am given strength. I do not have strength to make it through tomorrow. I wonder how I made it through yesterday. Today has enough troubles of its own, though.

I really miss my sisters. I wish I knew more of them where I'm at. *deep sigh* I also wish I fit into the culture better, but that's not happening any time soon. There are some things that no matter HOW hard you set your mind to change, you cannot change. God is in control, and His will will not be changed.

Praise the Lord, praise the Lord. I pray with Jabez: Oh God, that You would bless me indeed. That you would enlarge my territory. That Your hand would be with me, throughout all the days of my life so that I may not cause pain!

The Lord is the Lord. My God is in His heaven, and He cares for me. What more do I need? Naught! I need naught but the Lord!

Monday, October 06, 2003

My mandarin grade is messing up my gpa. I never thought I'd hear myself say that, but that's about the fifth time today I've said it. *sigh* Since when did grades become a scale to measure your self worth and not your school worth?

I wonder how much of it is MY fault: for not paying attention, for slacking off, for procrastinating, for not even trying to understand it . . . I know I bear a lot of the blame for my grade and I also know I had better shape up.

School would be a lot easier if the teachers showed the weensiest bit more patience. I'm quite tired of trying to live up to all of their expectations. It's very draining on mind, spirit, soul, and body. *sigh*

God is my provider. He can provide the strength I need to stand through this trial. Jehovah-Jireh.



Sunday, October 05, 2003

It's Sunday - the Lord's day. What am I doing? Schoolwork. I really, really hate it when school takes priority over God. Grrrr.

The weather WAS starting to change for the cooler . . . or not. Crazy weather . . . as crazy as beliefs in the Bay Area. Or as crazy as the gubenatorial in the middle of October. . . Anyway. . .

I miss my homeschooled friends . . . Sunbeam, JieGie, Psychodude, J. Edwards, etc. *sigh* I'll see them all one day again though. That's a nice thought to be confident of.

Saturday, October 04, 2003

Seriously a lot to do. *sigh* I know I should get to it, and soon my weekend will be over.

I hope my seed does not fall on barren ground. But God knows the heart. I do not. All I can do is get the Word out there. The Truth speaks for itself. They'll have to deal with it eventually.

To God be the glory, great things He hath done.

Friday, October 03, 2003

God is so good. My grades could be better, especially in mandarin. *sigh*. I'm doing pretty well in everything else. My AP history is very good (for me anyway).

Life is o.k. A lot of work and not a lot of play, but I get to see JieGie once a week. Other than that, school is my life. Oh, well. I asked for it. (But that's a story for another day).

So, you out there in Blog land: When does life actually become easier? Christian Answer: When you die. If you're not a Christian: never.

Thursday, October 02, 2003

Now for progress reports. Doing well in all but mandarin. Mandarin is seriously one of the hardest languages on the face of the earth. God is so interesting . . . He's got to have a really good reason for this . . . I don't know what it is. Maybe in a bit, He'll tell me. Until that time, I go on just trying to show Christ by example.

Bring on the AP report!

Wednesday, October 01, 2003

When you get close to God, when you get close to His shekinah glory, it is so hard to go back and be with people. Moses knew this. I wonder how he dealt with it . . . hmmm.

Patsy Clairmont shares a story where her 9 year old son Jason learned a valuble life lesson. One morning, she heard a knock on the door, and she opened it, and there was Jason. She said, "Jason! What are you doing here?" He said, "I've quit school." She said, "You've quit school? Why on earth would you quit school?" He said, "Because it's too long, it's too hard, and it's too boring." She looked at him and said, "Jason, you have just described life. Get back on the bus." So, for Him, who yet He slay me, yet will I trust in Him, who is able to do immeasurably more than all we ask or imagine . . . I'll get back on the bus.

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